Thursday, October 31, 2013

An Early Birdie

Bernadette Gladys
10.27.13 7:47pm
4lbs 15oz 16.5"



My sweet little Birdie came 6 weeks early.  It was actually about 24 hours after I took those superhero photos.  They don't know why she came so early and it's so frustrating.  She is in the NICU, but doing well and making progress everyday.  I am completely overwhelmed with emotions of anger, sadness, happiness, frustration and love.
<3
andrea

38 comments:

  1. Andrea - Congrats on your girl coming earth side! Unfortunately, I went through a birth too where I was not in control and had to deal with the NICU staff (who are not always supportive of natural needs). I don't really have any words of comfort, but I know what you're feeling and I know how supportive John is. I hope you find peace soon as you gaze at the wonder that is Bernadette. I love the skin to skin picture. She's is knocked out and loving some mama warmth. Many thoughts of peace coming your way!

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  2. love you and love Birdie!! You have all the emotions you need to have lady, they are ALL justified. Also, that photo of her asleep against you with your home tattoo is amazing

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  3. 6 weeks is early, but she looks pretty healthy! (almost 5 lbs....that's a good sign) Here's to a steady and short stay in the NICU and hopefully home soon. You're a very strong girl, you'll just need to channel that into your beautiful daughter. We'll be thinking of you!

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  4. Congrats Andrea! She is beautiful. She weighs the same as one of my twins did....he was a little longer. Her tininess reminds me of them. They came early too, but that was to be expected. Trust in her arrival and enjoy this time of new beginnings. She was just anxious to meet her sweet Momma. Praying she comes home very soon.

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  5. Welcome Birdie, what a beautiful name, for a beautiful girl. Hope you guys get to be home soon, sending warm thoughts your way. Congratulations!

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  6. she is so beautiful <3 i can understand your frustration, but i am so happy to hear she is doing well.

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  7. She is so beautiful, and I love you and her and this post. Still thinking of and praying for you all. Love love love love love love love.

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  8. The way she is looking at you in the first picture, just beautiful <3

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  9. Thoughts of you, baby Birdie, John, and Redding. <3

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  10. Oh my gosh!! Congrats to you and your family. She is soooo adorable!!

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  11. Oh man!!! Congratulations! That is a huge surprise/shock for you guys! Wow. She looks great though. I hope it all goes well from here. Absolutely love that photo of her right by your boob and the word 'home'. Bless.
    You'll have to do a delayed halloween thang.

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  12. WOW! I can only imagine how unexpected this was! She looks beautiful and healthy, that's for sure. I guess she just couldn't wait to get started, huh? I'm sending you all love!

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  13. She is so little! What a little peach. Congrats.

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  14. She is beautiful!! Many wishes for health and happiness!!

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  15. I've been reading your blog for a few weeks now, but have never commented: congrats on your beautiful baby girl! Sending good thoughts and vibes your way, hoping for a short stay in the NICU.

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  16. Awww! She's so sweet! My twin girls were 6 weeks early too (and weighed even less than your lil one). They were only in the NICU for 3 days... Small as she may be, she's stronger that you'd think. ;)

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  17. Sending big love to you and beautiful Birdie!

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  18. Andrea,
    I've been a reader for a while but have never commented. I love reading your blog, thank you so much for sharing it with us, your little family reminds me a lot of my own. I just wanted to say CONGRATULATIONS on the birth of your beautiful little girl. I am sending you love and positive vibes. I can imagine these days must be a rollercoaster of emotions and my heart goes out to you in both joy and frustration. The picture of her head on your chest next to your Home tattoo brought happy tears to my eyes. How true it is. :) Lots of love and congratulations from one Texan Mama to another (I grew up in Dallas, live in Chicago now). You done good girl, and welcome home Miss Bernadette!

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  19. Lots of love to you all and hope everything works out ok! I have read your blog and support you immensely though silently! Happy Halloween and Congratulations from Brigid, baby Eva and Martin over in Scotland ;) xxxx

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  20. Oh these pics melt my heart. Her on your chest is perfection!!

    As someone who got some of that newborn joy stolen away at the news my new babygirl was deaf, and having to go through all those shitty emotions of anger and worry and sadness and despair. I can only say that even with the different situation, I completely understand those feelings, and I encourage them, because you have to go through the stages of grief for what was supposed to have been...for her, and for you and your family, and your birth and breastfeeding relationship. It was supposed to be easy and wonderful and magical, just like it was with Redding, and you feel that it was stolen away with no rhyme or reason. I will say that after I got through those emotions, I realized that this baby of mine was absolutely perfect, and after a situation with my older brother Josh (my mom called him crying, and sobbing that No'i was "deeeaaaaaaf", and his heart sank, "She's dead!!!!??? What?!" to which my mom replied "No no, deaf....she's deaf!" To which my brother so perfectly replied "Deaf?? Oh ok. That's all?? We can work with that!"), if her being deaf was all I had to deal with, then I would gladly take it! Of course I had to get through a month in a half of the depression and the unknown, the "bad time" I like to call it. You'll get there to.

    Do not feel bad for feeling your feelings and don't stifle your tears. This is a really hard situation. I do wish I could go back and shake myself while I was in the throes of all those sad emotions, and say "STOP IT!!! She's amazing! Do not let this steal away your special newborn blissful baby time! Stop crying right now!! Breathe her in and think of nothing else!!" But, we can't go back.

    I just want to tell you that she is rockstar. She's doing better everyday. And so are you. You have the most wonderful little girl, and you are such a strong woman...I can't wait to see her come home with you and to see who she ends up being =) I love you so much.
    Chelsea

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  21. Congratulations and commiserations. I hope your beautiful Birdie grows stronger every day!

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  22. Hi Andrea,
    Congrats on Birdie's arrival (love her name) but i'm sorry to hear about the shock... and thankyou for posting! Well wishes to you and yours! X X X

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  23. Congratulations! She looks like a sweetie! I'm sorry she came so early; I hope she continues to progress, your family are in my prayers.
    xoxo
    millee-margaret.blogpot.com

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  24. Congratulation dear! SO happy For you. I hope the baby is fine. Prayer for both of you.
    Enjoy the time with family.
    XOXO

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  25. Congratulations!!! She's a beauty! I hope she's able to leave the NICU and head home very soon!

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  26. Seriously: how pretty is this little lady? Ok, so she came out a little early. So did Simon, my firstborn, and he's basically a 3-year old rockstar. Everything is going to be alright. That being said, once everyone is settled at home: paint, make pottery or break a few things with a hammer to let go of the shitty loss of control you've just been through... And then look into your daughter's eyes again and wonder how something so amazing can happen. Lots of love from you, John, Redding and your ray of sunshine, Bernadette.
    Julie from Montreal

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  27. She is gorgeous Andrea! My heart goes out to you regarding the frustrating part. My eldest, Matthew (now 8) was 8 weeks early and we never found out why. So I totally understand. Sending you lots of love and hugs and prayers for you and your lovely family x Susanna (Davis) Diggines

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  28. Congratulations! I'm so glad she's here and she's healthy! Still, what a tough, scary, and totally overwhelming experience that must have been!
    What a tiny perfect baby!

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  29. Congrats, mama! Sorry she didn't bake a little longer but it looks like she's doing well!

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  30. what a beautiful, magnificent baby! i'm doing clinicals in nicu right now and it struck me the other night that there really isn't anything more precious on every single metric imaginable than what was held in those little, warming incubators. i send you my heart!!

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  31. Oh my goodness! Congratulations!
    I know it must be so hard having her early, but she is absolutely precious! What a beautiful baby!
    My baby sister was five weeks early and weighed 4 lbs 15 oz, as well.
    Praying for you all that all is well and she's able to go home, soon! She is beautiful!!!

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  32. You are such a special person, Andrea, and it's evident by all the support in the messages above. You impact people's lives by just being. Your honesty and openness is amazing, thank you so much for sharing. With you as her mom, Birdie is bound to be a strong girl! Best of luck in this emotionally demanding time. x

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  33. Congrats Andrea, she is beautiful. I had two babies at 34 weeks each, premature rupture of membranes they called it. They were 4lb 5oz and 4lb 15oz. They are little fighters, girls are more so than boys I'm told. It's okay to feel all those emotions, get it out and then enjoy your beautiful daughter. Praying for you both. :)

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  34. Seriously, we as women perform miracles. Do not forget that you are amazing and have become a mother to two beings that love you unconditionally. What lucky children:)

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  35. She's beautiful, and that picture of her against your "home" tattoo is just wonderful.

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  36. awh, my goodness! what a darling new one! like above, i love the picture next to your tattoo!

    lindsey louise

    hellomrrabbitblog.com

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  37. Sending lots of love your way! Congrats! Xoxo

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