I believe there is a secret key to this life. That key being balance. The older I get the more I realize it's not just about balancing your diet or alcohol consumption, every aspect of life is better once balance is found.
I can objectively know this all I want, but putting it in action is another story. Although I am getting better with age it is still a constant struggle.
When I was twenty my parents and I checked myself into rehab for alcohol abuse. Why? Because I am what I'd like to call an 'extreme personality.' When I do something, I do it all the way. Why have one drink on friday when I could drink excessively many nights? Following my couple bats with abuse, I did a few years sober. Although I am very very grateful for this time in my life, towards the end of my last go-round in sobriety, I started to feel very off balance. This wasn't the answer! I didn't want to be scared walking through the super market, afraid the beer isle was going to jump out and tackle me. I wanted to be balanced. A healthy 'normal' drinker. Which I believe I found (but only by staying mentally and emotionally in-check).
I went straight from being a meat-eater my whole life, to waking up one day and being a vegan. No transition, no compromises.
I now am 90% vegan. In my home, mostly. I allow myself the occasional fish & dairy. I've changed my priorities. Staying local, staying away from processed food, never (ever) supporting factory farms. And I always try to eat what people serve me.
I often joke about Going Big or Going Home, and that I always go big. But, really, it's not a joke. I have trouble finding harmony in my daily things. I have trouble not going All. The. Way.
Sure, this can be a positive characteristic in certain circumstances, but one would have be balanced in most other areas of life.
I still have trouble in so many aspects in my life. Cleaning my house, a friend suggested only cleaning for ten minutes a day; My relationship and how to make sure we get enough alone-time & together time; my creative endeavors; Being a 'good' mother; working out; blogging; even fear (a little is healthy, a lot is crippling).
When I do something, I want to do it around the clock, every day, until the day I die... and when I fail, I give up completely. Well, now that's just silly, isn't it? Nevertheless, it's how I naturally think. "Well, I haven't blogged in a week, it's over. I'm done." :)
I will have to learn how to do more self-checks on those thoughts, won't I?
I'm sure I'll never reach this in every aspect. It will probably always be like a game of whack-a-mole, you get one thing in check and something else in life becomes peculiar. However, I do believe though, I'll keep on getting better and better.
I'm going to have an honest look at my life and start figuring things out. It's spring cleaning time y'all!